Misunderstanding All You See

I haven’t been on here in awhile. I don’t really go on the computer much. The 4th was a good time. Sure, it’s just an excuse to eat a lot and blow shit up, but who doesn’t like doing that? Most holidays have lost their initial meaning nowadays, so I suppose it doesn’t entirely matter.

I need to go to Missoula to see my mom for a little bit, but I know it’s going to be awhile. :( I just want to go so we can come back. That’s all. I’m thinking of just taking off by myself, it might be smarter.

Katy and Leeman’s wedding is Saturday and it just struck me I’ll be sitting by myself, which shouldn’t stop me from going, but c’mon. That’s a little awkward. Maybe Callie will go, and I can sit with her..

I leave for California on Sunday. Not stoked. At all. That place can offer me nothing anymore. I mean, I’m super excited to see my dad and cousin, but I’ll be away from my friends, my boyfriend, my life. I’ll probably get a chance to record, but I’m not sure I’m ready for that yet. Dumb click track. I may have to have a studio player, but that’s kinda dumb. I think I might just steal Boston’s computer when I get back and do it myself. Then send it to James so he can do it..

Okay, I’m rambling and things nobody cares about. This was a very self involved and pointless post. Ah well. 

Hope you all enjoyed your 4th and are having a great 5th!

Later.

Too much has happened to even begin to explain and I’m too tired for much else.

I’m an idiot. That’s about it. A big. fucking. idiot.